January 17, 2011

Even though my son's birthday was the 3rd of January, we just celebrated it on Saturday with friends and family. He is now 31 and it is so hard to believe as time has passed very quickly. Up until the time of my divorce from his father, Brian was a happy go-lucky kind of kid. He was full of energy and had so much to say. He loved the Lord from a very young age. I never understood why he was so captured by the things of God at the time but it proved to be the strength that got him through the tough years after my divorce. Brian is an amazing man. Oh he has faults to be sure, but he is such a strong man of integrity. His passion for serving God is inspiring and his unwavering faith in God's character and love for him is steady and rock solid. I have always admired those things in him. Brian loves deeply and unconditionally. He has compassion for the lost and a heart to reach the poor and needy. He is a loving husband to his beautiful wife, Liz, and an amazing father of little J-man. Even when hard times fall and circumstances are far from what he dreamed or hoped for, he presses on. . . most of the time with a smile on his face and contentment in his heart. I love my son and am so proud to be his mom.

This weekend was a wet, cold and dreary kind of weekend in terms of weather. One of those times, you just really want to crawl in front of a warm fireplace reading a good book. For me, it was hard to be motivated to do anything. I had so much on my plate I needed to do but I simply squeaked by on the bare minimum of what had to be done to get by. Motivation was hibernating those two days and I'm not sure it has yet raised itself from the slumbering sleep it has enjoyed. I guess I just feel kind of blah. Not sure why, but I feel a little yucky. Perhaps it is because of what I have been eating and lack of exercise. Who knows. I just feel lethargic physically, emotionally and spiritually. I definitely need a shot of energy!

So, Lord, may I be energized as I focus on you today. May motivation to serve You wholeheartedly arise out of its slumber and take me to new places with You. Help me put off all laziness and trade it for a desire to walk on the paths You have ordained for me.