What to do...what to do. I have so much to do and no desire to do them. I am so tired. But..must get on with it anyway. Suppose to meet with a good friend for Bible Study tomorrow. I am going to take her through James and I am looking forward to it. Never did this before so am fully aware of my inadequacies, but am trusting that God will lead us both. I need to do some preparation which is the part I look forward to. I also need to get ready for my trip to California. To top it off...my house is a mess. From one end to the other is in disarray. I really don't do well with that. I like things clean and in order. It distracts me. But....have to prioritize. Liz made a fantastic dinner and Carol and I cleaned up. Now the family is out in the dining room playing games which is where I'd really like to be. It is hard because I love to play games. Not crazy about long strategy games, but they are trying a new one that sounds fun. Must focus...
My son and his wife are trying to train Josiah to go to bed and go to sleep without being held. Oh my gosh..right thing to do but breaks my heart. I can hear him in there crying. I want to put on my super grammy cape and race in there, pick him up and cuddle him until he falls asleep. I know I can't do that, but oh do I want to. I hate to hear that precious baby cry. Little man..how your grammy loves you and wants to take care of you. Your parents are doing the right thing baby. They really are. Just close your sweet little eyes and let the dreams commence. It is okay. There will be more time tomorrow to play and be loved on. Don't be so sad. You are not alone. I am here. I hear you. Mommy and Daddy are here and they love you so much. They are doing this for you. Sounds ridiculous I know...but they really are. More importantly ...God is there with you. He looks over you in ways you can't imagine. His love is perfect. One day you will learn about God. I can't wait until we can talk about who He is and how much He has taken care of our family over the years. You will be amazed when you hear of God's faithfulness. One day soon...little man...you and Grammy will speak of the goodness of the Lord together. But for now..go to sleep J-man. Just close your eyes and rest. I love you!
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