January 10, 2011

Thankfully after taking some meds at work, my headache finally is gone. What a relief. Yesterday is such a blur as I spent most of it sleeping.

Today my reading was in my least favorite part of the Bible. Though I think it is good to understand genealogy, I can't say that I really like reading the long lists of who begat who. I know it holds importance or else God would not have included it in Scripture but it makes for an unenlightening read. It would be so nice if every time I read the Bible, I walked away with a deeper understanding of God's truths. I wish that just opening His Word would magically impart God's heart into mine and that I would simply be transformed in an instant. I know I always want the easy way out, but it seems like it would be simpler if God would just wave a wand and suddenly I would have a deeper understanding of His Word. I want a transformed life but I don't always want to do my part. The world crowds so much of my thoughts and attention that it demands to be noticed. My natural self does not chase after the things of God, but quite the opposite. My renewed mind, however, longs to commune with the Lord in an intimate relationship. It is a daily battle where I let my focus rest. Today was one of those battles and the only thing I know is that once I was blind but now I see!